You Could Be Happy

I chanced upon this gem when i walked into a music store recently. It does not help that my ex is away in the states and I am missing him so. Well, to cut a long story short, me and my ex have our differences. MANY DIFFERENCES. But yet we tried and tried till we both could not anymore. The break up was amicable. Well almost....

It took time but we managed to still be friends after 3 years since the break up. He is still a great friend of mine but i never really realise his presence till recently. Away for 2 weeks... That is not long, you might say. Maybe it is god's way of just telling me how important he is to me and how much he means to me. More than I know....

Maybe it is what i went through during the time he was away. Nothing drastic. Just realising some of my friends who have been together for awhile, are behaving the way we behave when we are together. What is one to think? Maybe this is as good as it gets.... Then what is it am I looking for?

Nothing. Halfway through writing this, I just realised that we will never be the one that we are looking for but yet I still have this strong feelings for him. Sigh.... This song by snow patrol, captures the essence of what I am feeling at the moment. I'll be honest. It makes me cry but at the same time it makes me realise the truth of it all.... I do want him to be happy even if it is not with me. But yet....

Went to a birhday party recently and I found that the host and the birthday girl is going through pretty much the same thing. Ironic? No! I am not Alanis Morissette (check out the meaning of ironic and go and listen to her song of the same title). It is just a coincidence I guess. One that made me realise how I feel.. I love him. I really do.

He has brought me joy. So much that I have taken it for granted. Baby, if you are reading this, the song reminds me of what is important. N what is that?

Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Snow Patrol's You Could Be Happy....





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