Time for Reflection

Kate Bush is an amazing singer songwriter. Her latest offering 'Aerial' is an example of how she evolves with her music. I first took notice of her when she released 'Hounds Of Love' (an amazing album by the way). Tracks like Running Up The Hill, Cloudbusting and the title track are amazing songs that I can listen to over and over again.

However there is one song that will always be dear to me. It helped me go through a tough time in my life. About a year ago, I lost my mom to cancer. I'll try not to go into too much details but my mom was very dear to me. Yes, I did take her for granted, pursuing my needs and wants that sometimes led to neglect. She was an amazing woman who believed in the good of people and always putting others above herself. I am who I am today because of her and if I am half of what she was, I am happy.

Well, not to be too dramatic, when she finally gave in to her sickness, I was devastated. But being the person who I am, I was able to block everything out. I went on with my life as usual and tried very hard not to think of her (I did quite well actually). However I still felt that there was something inside that had to come out. I don't know what it was untill I heard this song.

'This Woman's Work' (coincidentally, Maxwell also recorded an amazing cover of this song) was a song that I loved but on one particular day, as I was lying in bed listening to it, something took over me . I just wept and wept like a baby and that is something that is rare for me. I think it was the words of the song and how her voice truefully emote the song. One of resignation but yet hopeful. Longing.... Read the lyrics...

This Woman's Work

I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.
I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.
I should be crying, but I just can't let it show.
I should be hoping, but I can't stop thinking
Of all the things I should've said,That I never said.
All the things we should've done,That we never did.
All the things I should've given,But I didn't.

All the things that you needed from me.
All the things that you wanted for me.
All the things that I should've given,
But I didn't.

Oh, darling, make it go,
Make it go away.

Regret. That is what it was. That was what I was feeling. My mom never expected much from me. Yet I could not deliver. For now, I can only console myself by telling myself that I tried my best to be there for her when it mattered most..... Was that enough....